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i am finding myself to be a loner these days which is so crazy considering how just almost two yrs ago i wouldnt even go to the store alone. i am not sure if i should worry about the fact that i like to b holed up in my house when i am done dealing with the general public at the end of my day...lol i like it and it is not hurting me so i think its ok. i am a mother before i am anything else in my opinion. without my children i would not even want to be here, well i take that back i have actually found another reason to live recently and that is my love. he has given my life a whole new meaning and purpose. that is kinda scary too though. i have only learned in my 28 yrs that when u trust people they always hurt u and let u down. somehow this guy has changed my view on that i can honestly say i trust him and he is the only one in this place i like to call hell that i do trust. I am smart and stupid all at the very same time. i am tryn to learn how to pay closer attention to everything around me, it's something i used to do well but now dont do at all. this is quite a challenge for me. i am beautiful i believe inside as well as out. i do have a horrible habit of wanting tro please everyone eswpecially before myself and i have a bad tendency to tell people what they want to hear and i am accused of not listening to people..lol like truly hearing them, this is probably my worst habit and i am definately tryn to fix that for my guys sake...lol i enjoy kickn it at home watchn tv or movies and i thinkits cuz for so many years i was constantly going and never took time or enjoyed watching tv. seriously i think a few yrs passed me by and i didnt even look at a tv. so i am taking the time now to calm down and actually enjoy some of the simple things. geez i really have a hellofa time with these tell about urself things i thionk i am bored with it now so that is just a lil bit about me. im so over it now so i guess if people are that interested in me they will find a way to know me. i am a lover and i am a savage fighter. i love to love and to be loved. i am very loved and actually pretty satisfied with my life in general right now. i have a few goals to reach to make my life better and i long to b successful in my relationship, education, financially and health wise and i will have what i want cuz i will work for it and will not settle for less tahn what i deserve i have done that far too long in my life.

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